Since it's common knowledge that I have got some fears, it should also be noted that I hate change! I don't deal with it well at all. So 6 months ago we moved. It's been the hardest thing for me! We moved one mile away. I realize this is pathetic but I've had every emotion hit me about moving. However, it's not just that we packed up our house and moved our belongings, I have a theory as to why it's been so hard:
- We changed Wards-we went from a very small, close knit ward, to a huge ward where I hardly know anyone! Making new friends if very hard for me!
- Two of my greatest friends moved away, I miss them terribly!
- I started learning who my true friends are and who was just "friends" with me because we were in the same ward.
I've had some great help though in dealing with the change and some recent realizations:
- My three year old was having a hard time adjusting and stopped sleeping through the night, she went from sharing a room with her brothers to having her own room. A great friend brought her family over for dinner and it normalized everything for my girl and she started enjoying her own room and started sleeping all night again. Thank you!
- I came to the realization that having not moved wouldn't make me feel better. I didn't miss our ward as much as I missed our ward of a few years ago when my great friends were still there.
- I have still got some great friends that will always be my friends and that after a really bad day I can call at 9:30 at night to meet me for a movie and they let me complain and they make me laugh and we enjoy our movie.
So my conclusion is I've been neglecting blogging because people don't want to hear me complain about how difficult things have been lately, but now that I'm on the other side I can say I love my new house, the space is amazing, and I'm so glad we switched wards, all the kids have made so many new great friends that it was completely worth it! And I've got great friends that haven't moved and I really do enjoy them. And I made a new friend! So I am back and I did do something completely for the sake of the blog this summer. Stay tuned.....................
5 comments:
I am so glad you are back. I have missed ready from the two of you. It makes me feel so normal. Thanks for opening yourself up. Many hugs...
I've missed you too! I'm sorry to hear you been struggling...and happy to hear you're feeling better. :)
I'm glad you moved into our ward and hope you'll feel "at home" here very soon! I'll listen to venting and see a movie with you anytime!
I know what you mean about having a hard time making friends! I have a hard time too. I didn't when I was younger, and I'm not sure what my issue is now, but apparently I have issues galore! Anyway, I know how you feel and I'm glad you have someone to call! I need to find a someone like that for me! :)
There is no guilt in blogging, so don't worry about the hiatus. Moving is tough, even if it is just a mile away. And thanks for being my friend still - you are amazing and always make me feel better when I'm down. Let's run into each other sometime soon at Costco....or Old Navy...or our other usual rendezvous. :)
I missed the blog! Sorry the change has been tough. I get what you're saying. Even slight changes can sometimes be rough. You helped me realize why I haven't been blogging. Maybe I'll get to it sometime again. So wish we were closer for late night chats, etc. Miss you!
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